Sharing the news that I am pregnant with our second child publicly is scary for me. With my pregnancy with Berkley I was announcing right at 12 weeks when I was “in the safe zone”. I was the happiest I had ever been expecting to be mother soon. Now I am scared to tell the world that we are expecting our second child because, I do not want to have to publicly announce a child has died again.
We are beyond grateful that we are expecting our second child to join our family this January. We are very happy but know this pregnancy is so much different from our last. Physically the same but, mentally much different.
We found out on an early Friday morning as we were getting ready to leave for our road trip out to Montana. To be honest when I saw those two lines show up pregnant we were beyond happy. I also felt there is no way this baby is going to stick around. I mean why would it? Here we are going on 16 weeks and it’s still hanging in there like a champ.
The farther I get into the pregnancy the more it sinks in that we might be bring a baby home in 5 months. I am detached from this pregnancy in a way that I am in love but, haven’t allowed myself to feel the love like I did with Berkley yet. I know this baby deserves all the love that Berkley had but, now I also know the pain that is on the other side of that love. I have an amazing doctor and a new therapist that has a lot of experience working with mothers that have lost babies. They both reassure me that what I am feeling is very normal.
I know I will love this child just as much and know in my heart I already do. I saw it already on a ultrasound at 12 weeks and we find out this weekend what gender our second child is. We are very excited and already have names picked out for both genders.
Tony, me and our families are beyond excited.
Keep your positive thoughts coming Sammie! & Tony!! You will be great parents!
Sending Love, Thoughts and Prayers!
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Beyond happy for you both! You are already great parents. What a lucky little babe.
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Thank you so much!
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Best of luck and congratulations. I hope to be in the same boat some day.
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Thank you and I hope you are too! Sending my love your way.
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Congratulations on your rainbow! You’ve defiantly described my feelings as far as being detached but not entirely. I feel like each week that goes by the more attached I get to my rainbow. Wishing you a very healthy and happy pregnancy ❤️🌈
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Congrats on your rainbow! Wishing you a healthy and happy pregnancy also.
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Congratulations! Here’s to hoping for a healthy pregnancy, delivery, and baby!
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Thank you so much!
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Wishing you all the luck in the world, and the strength to face all your fears and doubts head on during this pregnancy.
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