It’s hard to put into words how to explain the feeling reliving pain is again after you’ve healed. After have learning how to carry pain you pick up tools, you gain knowledge, and understanding of the cycle of pain. You look inward for answers.
I had lived in such a dark place for so long that I didn’t recognize the person looking back at me. It was an empty person, a disconnected person, and I wondered if I’d ever see myself again. Today, I’m the happiest I’ve been my whole life. I feel like I won the jackpot. I have the life that I couldn’t have imagined as a little girl. I’ve grown to love myself, found my courage, and my voice. I’m in a strange place with a coupe major life stressors happening at the same time. Like that man life is hard, like really hard but since I’ve practice carrying that pain, transforming that pain I can still be in that place of light and happiness. Not slipping into that darkness.
Some of the people closest to me in my life have spent periods in their life in their darkness. I would tell them, you will get out of this darkness. You are strong, I believe in you. You will leave this period stronger that you ever imagined. I could tell them with confidence because I knew that darkness and believe in them.
If you are in that period of darkness know that you will escape this. You will see your light, your personality return and that person you love come back. You will be stronger than you’ve ever imagined.
Surviving The Storms 